Archiwum wrzesień 2005


wake me up when may ends..
Autor: zmieniona-trzy-kropki
20 września 2005, 00:32

i hate it when the summer ends..i hate a lot of things..isn't that bad or something ? also a lot of things piss me off..there are some days which are really nothing special - neither too boring nor too exciting - just plain. i know that nothing ever happens twice but surely a great deal of things are very alike. why do i even bother ? i know that i'm nothing special - i never was (and of course i always knew that). on one hand is it that imortant to be special ? and for whom i'd like to be special ? myself? my paretns? family? friends (oopss..too big word - there aren't a lot of them really..)? i feel that i'm in the exactly same place since secondary school..nothing more - nothing less..sure - i got older, perhaps my appearance changed a bit, i earn my own money but i feel just as confused in the state of mind as i was then. nobody will ever belive that i don't like myslef because i'm so nice,a little silly, always smiling - simply i look like a cheerful person. the truth is i feel so fucking confused that i'm even scared to bring that thought up! i feel like sleeping till everything sorts itself out but unfortunately it's not that easy. the thought that a guy could make me feel a bit better is even more depressing..and i don't mean the chance of finding one but the simplicity in "operating" me. "just put a coin in and the laughter and happiness will come to my face soon". fuck that's depressing..i don't like the winter.i don't like it to be cold.i don't like the inequitable ways in which life kicks us no matter in what position we are.i hate having little knowledge and little self-esteem to do sth with it. too small will to do anything. even stupid push-ups...fuck i'm sad and pathetic...the only solution for now is bed. sleep is good and healthy. but it doesn't change the fuckt that tomorrow after waking up a new day will rise and new frustrations will appear..

feeling worthless...

 

An old man turned ninety-eight
He won the lottery and died the next day
It's a black fly in your Chardonnay
It's a death row pardon two minutes too late
Isn't it ironic, don't you think

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
And who would've thought, it figures

Mr. Play It Safe was afraid to fly
He packed his suitcase and kissed his kids good-bye
He waited his whole damned life to take that flight
And as the plane crashed down he thought
"Well isn't this nice"
And isn't it ironic...don't you think

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
And who would've thought, it figures

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up in your face

A traffic jam when you're already late
A no-smoking sign on your cigarette break
It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife
It's meeting the man of my dreams
And then meeting his beautiful wife

And isn't it ironic, don't you think
A little too ironic, and yeah I really do think

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
And who would've thought, it figures

Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
Life has a funny, funny way of helping you out
Helping you out

 Alanis Morissette - Ironic

ps.i'm feeling bad so don't even dare to correct my mistakes.

te i tamte tyz
Autor: zmieniona-trzy-kropki
14 września 2005, 01:12


05,09, godz. 00.57
i oto powrocila corka marnotrawna! uczucie dziwne dosc..cos tak jakbym zegnala sie z wakacjami i jutro musiala isc do szkoly..co prawda wakacji tak naprawde jeszcze trochu przede mna..do rozpoczecia roku akademickiego jeszcze chwila a poza tym jest jeszcze grecja.. ale i tak jakos smutnawo mi na duszy ze te w sporej czesci beztroskie i nieplanowo przedluzone kolonie dobiegly konca..na czas najblizszy przynajmniej :>

aporopos liczb.. w miedzyczasie stuknelo mi 21; uganiam sie za 3 lata..mlodszym (!) fajnie zbudowanym penisista (ktory wyjatkowo jak na ten szczep jest normalny i mozna z nim nawet porozmawiac!) a on ni pozostaje tak do konca wzgledem mnie obojetny ..:>[ale niewiele juz czasu zostalo zeby sie za nim uganiac..:(]; kolonie majace pierwotnie trwac kilka dni przedluzyly sie do dni 23!; na 13 dniowej diecie schudlam kilo: 5; ilosc ksiazek dokonczonych: 1 (no co?wolno-czytajaca jestem:P); ilosc ksiazek napoczetych i prawie skonczonych:1; ilosc wygranej w kosci o dowodzenie nad swiatem i okolicami: sporsza :]; ilosc godzin spedzonych na kortach tenisowych podczas kolonii (bynajmniej nie w celach sportowych a do towarzystwa & czasem pomocy pani kolonijno-okienkowej zwanej inaczej "szefowa";)): ojjjj sporsza! ;ilosc normalnych ludzi napodtkanych na owym obiekcie sportowym: niewielka; ilosc minut tesknienia za rodzicami: -(minus) 100 :P; ilosc minut tesknienia za psem: kilkanascie :); ilosc wypalonych papierosow: sporo; ilosc wypitych trunkow: trochu :>; ilosc wymienienia slowa prysznic w innych niz higienicznych zamyslach: ojjj trochu ;P; ilosc spamu przybylego stadnie do mojej skrzynki podczas nieobecnosci: 190 (!) - w tym jeden z bardzo interesujaca oferta kupna koszulki z napisem "god is everywhere i go" :P


13,09, godz.01:05

cisza i spokoj..ale tylko do jutra :/ rodzice na maxa przedluzyli dzialkowanie sprawiajac mile przedluzenie moich kolonii we wlasnym domu!
ponadto co napisalam 5.09. (jakos ni moglam sie zebrac zeby zamiescic na blogu) ni dzieje sie poki co nic szczegolnego. liczby sie trochu pozmienialy tylko ;) na korty w dalszym ciagu wpadam a teniscisci (dalej zwani penisistami) w dalszym ciagu pierdolnieci.nie spodziewalam sie ze uprawiany sport (plus kasa) moga tak zmanierowac nie tylko uprawiajacych sport ale i cale ich rodziny! o zgrozo! kobiety! apeluje! jezeli kiedykolwiek trafi Wam sie penisista uciekajcie gdzie pieprz rosnie!
od wczoraj mam blizej nieokreslonego wkurwa wiec skoncze juz i tak dlugasna notke. moze najdzie mnie na dzielenie sie "madrosciami" zyciowymi jakos pozniej ?
no.to tyle misiaczki moje.
cmokas!

pees. ostatni album Systemu rzadzi !
pees2. Real dostal slono w dupe :P
pees3. czy Wy tez wsiadajac do srodka transportu publicznego zastanawiacie sie czy to Wy tak strasznie capicie czy to inni ludzie? ;P
pees4. z ostatniej chwili - Grecja odwolana..nie jade..Unia dala za malo kasy i uj..projekt ni wypalil... kurwa no! ten tydzien od samego poczatku jest ujowy! ;(